kaw lang talaga waffles coh
Sunday, October 23, 2005
i love my waffles
wala lang gusto ko lang mlaman mo na mahal na mahal kita....di mo kailangan maguilty kung sasabihin mo na mahal mo pa rin ako...tatanggapin kita kahit ano pa yun....
mahal na mahal kita at maghihintay ako sayo....kahit na meron kang iba ngayon san sa huli tayo pa rin sa finals hehehehe love u so much waffles koh
Saturday, September 17, 2005
badtrip
well it all started by a walng ka kwenta kwentang bagay.........maybe it's my fault talaga i keep on asking questions eh....sana di na ko nagtanong ....nasasakatan lang naman ako eh..nyways siguro nga tama xa plastic ako ....dahil kahit galit na ako di ko pa sasabhin cguro dahil ayaw ko lang humaba pa yung mga bagay bagay kaya lang mali pala ako humaba pa rin at the end ako pa dapat ang sisihin pero hindi dapat ako ang nasaktan eh bakit ako mag aapologize ewan ko b,,,siguro konting pride naman sa part ko..sabi nga ni mark bat ba daw ako lagi ang mahihirapan nagsorry naman na siya eh pero nung tinanong ko siya kung bakit siya nag sosorry kasi daw nagalit siya di koa alam kung matutuwa ako sa sagot niya nung tinanong ko naman siya kung bakit siya nagalait ewan daw niya kaya kahit di pa ko okay okay na lang para wala ng gulo...wala ng pinaguusapan ...sawa na ko sa gulo..........sorry lang niya okay na ko........
Friday, September 09, 2005
.....moving on letter...peyups.com
It occurred to me again, this time in the middle of procrastinating against studying for an exam tomorrow. I kept you safe within the remote areas of my consciousness, but suddenly, as if driven by an unknown force, your memory unearths itself, returning some sort of unfinished business. Consequently, I pause from studying and I start thinking about you.
And it always left me a touch of sadness. As far as I was concerned, I made it a point not to think about you anymore, at least not that often as I used to, in the form of preoccupation. There’s a lot of homework to do, friends to spend time and energy with, family affairs, television, radio. There’s even a new object of affection in the rough. Works for the most part, I should say. Within the confines of my room with school books before me, there is forgetting
It occurred to me again, this time in the middle of procrastinating against studying for an exam tomorrow. I kept you safe within the remote areas of my consciousness, but suddenly, as if driven by an unknown force, your memory unearths itself, returning some sort of unfinished business. Consequently, I pause from studying and I start thinking about you.
And it always left me a touch of sadness.
As far as I was concerned, I made it a point not to think about you anymore, at least not that often as I used to, in the form of preoccupation. There’s a lot of homework to do, friends to spend time and energy with, family affairs, television, radio. There’s even a new object of affection in the rough. Works for the most part, I should say. Within the confines of my room with school books before me, there is forgetting.
Just like the manner by which ice cubes freeze bacteria within their crystal networks. As long as they remain frozen, everything’s safe. There is no need to worry.
But somehow, you still manage to permeate my system, as if it were an expertise or a tediously-learned skill. Moment by moment, you profusely enter my mind, filling my awareness with lost memories of once-upon-a-times and whatnots. Remembrances of holding hands, afternoon walks, lunch outs, text messages and phone calls. Of yesterday’s seemingly unbreakable promises and proclamations of forever.
I should’ve put into mind what an old friend once wrote, ‘Forever is not real’.
I have always yearned to understand what had happened between us. Us won’t even suffice: it was never a real relationship to begin with. We just hung out and talked and spent time together more often than we did with our other friends and colleagues. Sometimes it pained me that I could not do anything in my power to make you speak about us. Certainly, the ambiguity was present, the ambiguity which you never wanted to clarify.
I could only let you go on with whatever it was that you desired, whether it be ranting about your insecurities, rejoicing over happier news or lamenting about your eventful past. On the other side, I remained silent in the middle of your hyped-up emotion. I was like a child with beaming eyes, eager to hear more stories of how you came about to be the person that you are. For you once told me that listening to you gave you strength to go on, and so I did. I have always wanted you to be okay.
Yet when it was my turn to be heard, the silence was a void. I suspended my disbelief when I convinced myself that you always meant well, whenever you apologized for there was nothing you can do about my bouts of depression, or when you simplify things by saying that everything will be alright. I know I should not expect things from other people; perhaps I was at fault when I wanted more from you when you can only give so little.
You hurt me. You hurt me many, many times. You hurt me so intensely I never dared to tell you anything about it. I was a fool to think that it was a better way of dealing with things. And that, I presume to be my biggest mistake: I abandoned myself. I sought for your happiness that I forgot about mine altogether.
And just like that, you vanished, very much like a soap bubble floating across air. I have watched you in complete awe, wonder and even fascination. And similar to any ethereal fleeting moment, you were gone, leaving me clueless as to whether you even existed in the first place.
So maybe what we had was love. Maybe I loved you, and I hope to heavens that you loved me back: even just for a split second when we held hands, or during that moment when I looked into your eyes, or the time when I laughed at one of your silly quirks. I’d be content with that idea, I’d be content that in the course of our friendship, there was a moment of mutuality; even if it was so quick I never noticed it all.
Perhaps I still do love you, but that won’t do much now. I can fight to save everything that I’ve invested, but I chose not to. I have treasured you in the past, and that will be enough. Right now, all I can do is wish you well in all your endeavors, including the pursuit for the one who is right for you. When you find her, I wish she makes you happy. You make her happy as well.
The end is only a beginning disguised as a parting. I will still think about you every now and then, probably be sad once in a while, but you need not to worry. For I am okay and I will be okay under all circumstances. It may take time for me to love again, but in the long run, it will be all worth it. I may still risk myself, but every risk in its own respect is worth taking anyway. Love is such a convoluted mixture of emotions and decisions that it’s a matter of working your way through it.
Thank you for gracing my life like a whirlwind, leaving me breathless and hurt, inspired and furious, affectionate and listless. You’ve taught me quite a lot and I learned them in the most humbling manner. Thank you for showing me what it means to be human, to commit mistakes, and to discover how to regain yourself after everything that had happened.
Like what I always say, Ad astra per aspera. A rough road leads to the stars. I’m on my way to becoming stellar.
And it always left me a touch of sadness. As far as I was concerned, I made it a point not to think about you anymore, at least not that often as I used to, in the form of preoccupation. There’s a lot of homework to do, friends to spend time and energy with, family affairs, television, radio. There’s even a new object of affection in the rough. Works for the most part, I should say. Within the confines of my room with school books before me, there is forgetting
It occurred to me again, this time in the middle of procrastinating against studying for an exam tomorrow. I kept you safe within the remote areas of my consciousness, but suddenly, as if driven by an unknown force, your memory unearths itself, returning some sort of unfinished business. Consequently, I pause from studying and I start thinking about you.
And it always left me a touch of sadness.
As far as I was concerned, I made it a point not to think about you anymore, at least not that often as I used to, in the form of preoccupation. There’s a lot of homework to do, friends to spend time and energy with, family affairs, television, radio. There’s even a new object of affection in the rough. Works for the most part, I should say. Within the confines of my room with school books before me, there is forgetting.
Just like the manner by which ice cubes freeze bacteria within their crystal networks. As long as they remain frozen, everything’s safe. There is no need to worry.
But somehow, you still manage to permeate my system, as if it were an expertise or a tediously-learned skill. Moment by moment, you profusely enter my mind, filling my awareness with lost memories of once-upon-a-times and whatnots. Remembrances of holding hands, afternoon walks, lunch outs, text messages and phone calls. Of yesterday’s seemingly unbreakable promises and proclamations of forever.
I should’ve put into mind what an old friend once wrote, ‘Forever is not real’.
I have always yearned to understand what had happened between us. Us won’t even suffice: it was never a real relationship to begin with. We just hung out and talked and spent time together more often than we did with our other friends and colleagues. Sometimes it pained me that I could not do anything in my power to make you speak about us. Certainly, the ambiguity was present, the ambiguity which you never wanted to clarify.
I could only let you go on with whatever it was that you desired, whether it be ranting about your insecurities, rejoicing over happier news or lamenting about your eventful past. On the other side, I remained silent in the middle of your hyped-up emotion. I was like a child with beaming eyes, eager to hear more stories of how you came about to be the person that you are. For you once told me that listening to you gave you strength to go on, and so I did. I have always wanted you to be okay.
Yet when it was my turn to be heard, the silence was a void. I suspended my disbelief when I convinced myself that you always meant well, whenever you apologized for there was nothing you can do about my bouts of depression, or when you simplify things by saying that everything will be alright. I know I should not expect things from other people; perhaps I was at fault when I wanted more from you when you can only give so little.
You hurt me. You hurt me many, many times. You hurt me so intensely I never dared to tell you anything about it. I was a fool to think that it was a better way of dealing with things. And that, I presume to be my biggest mistake: I abandoned myself. I sought for your happiness that I forgot about mine altogether.
And just like that, you vanished, very much like a soap bubble floating across air. I have watched you in complete awe, wonder and even fascination. And similar to any ethereal fleeting moment, you were gone, leaving me clueless as to whether you even existed in the first place.
So maybe what we had was love. Maybe I loved you, and I hope to heavens that you loved me back: even just for a split second when we held hands, or during that moment when I looked into your eyes, or the time when I laughed at one of your silly quirks. I’d be content with that idea, I’d be content that in the course of our friendship, there was a moment of mutuality; even if it was so quick I never noticed it all.
Perhaps I still do love you, but that won’t do much now. I can fight to save everything that I’ve invested, but I chose not to. I have treasured you in the past, and that will be enough. Right now, all I can do is wish you well in all your endeavors, including the pursuit for the one who is right for you. When you find her, I wish she makes you happy. You make her happy as well.
The end is only a beginning disguised as a parting. I will still think about you every now and then, probably be sad once in a while, but you need not to worry. For I am okay and I will be okay under all circumstances. It may take time for me to love again, but in the long run, it will be all worth it. I may still risk myself, but every risk in its own respect is worth taking anyway. Love is such a convoluted mixture of emotions and decisions that it’s a matter of working your way through it.
Thank you for gracing my life like a whirlwind, leaving me breathless and hurt, inspired and furious, affectionate and listless. You’ve taught me quite a lot and I learned them in the most humbling manner. Thank you for showing me what it means to be human, to commit mistakes, and to discover how to regain yourself after everything that had happened.
Like what I always say, Ad astra per aspera. A rough road leads to the stars. I’m on my way to becoming stellar.
Thursday, August 25, 2005
confused again
im really tired,sa school kasi eh badtrip intrams na bukas klase pa rin dun,hay kakaloka di ko alam kung pano ko nakakatagal sa school na yun pero what's weird di ko naman maiwan hehehe...
i miss mah bestee na ....alam ko mali pero la lang pag may problema ako siya ang unang hinahanap ko, pag may achievement ako kahit gaano kababaw,kasimple alam ko maapreciate niya ako...di tulad ni....basata di na ko magbababggit ng pangalan bahala nah lang...,i love the way my bestee takes care of me...ung nagagalit xa pag nagakakasakit ako kasi di ko daw inaalagaan yung katawan ko samantalang siya di niya alam kung pano niya ako aalagaan....ewan ko lag...mali to im in a relationship ryt now pero pag dumadating yung tym na malungkot ako sa kanya lang ako tumatakbo ...siguro dahil nararamdaman ko at nakikita ko ang sincerity niya,,,alam ko pag kasama ko siya i dont need to pretend , i can be mahself...basta gusto ko lang malaman niya na i really appreciate him and thank him for being there for meh always ................
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Friday, July 22, 2005
maling akala
grabe what a day puyat ako hehehe....wla lang just feeling kinda hurt.....dami dami kasing maling akala eh...nagsimula nanaman ako...huhuhu.dmi dmi ko pa kasing napapansin eh sana wala na lang me napansin hehehe...bat ba ganito tatawa ko pero ang totoo naiiyak na ko....hurt nga ako di ba??? tuwing tinitingnan ko picture mo wala lang natatawa ako hahaha di dahil tinatawanan ko mukha m pero natatawa ako sa sarili ko dahil don ko lang nasasabi lahat ng sama ng loob ko sayo...hahaha nakakatwa noh..ewan ko ba bat di ko masabi sayo yungmga sama ng loob ko sayo....cguro takot lang ako...pero ano naman dapat kong katakutan??? siguro takot lang ako na pag sinabi ko sau mgalit ka ganun naman eh ako na nasaktan ako pa ang ang mag sosorry sau... ganun naman eh...nagsosorry ako dahil sinasaktan mo ko at nasaktan naman ako...kaya minsan kahit galit na galit na ko hinahayaan ko na lang...para wala na alng mapag usapan,,,para lang wala ng gulo....madali lang yun kukunin ko lang ang pic mo at yun nalabas ko na lahat ng galit ko....nakakatawa talaga pero wala ng ibang paraan eh yun lang......ang dami kong nalaman nang nagusap tayo....dun ko lang nalaman na kaya pala kinakausap mo ko nun dahil ano yung term mo??? palipas oras wow..kala ko pa naman close tayo..hay bakit ko ba inassume na kaibigan kita to think di lang friend ha....bestfriend.kaya nahurt ako pero di na lang ako kumibo ...eh bakit pa para saan pa???kahit magalit ako wla naman mangyayari....pero alm mo wala namn sa akin yun eh...pinaka na hurt lang ako nung sinabi ko na parang di mo man ako namimiss alam mo kung ano ang sagot mo.....iwasan ko na lang ang mga tanong na alam kong masasaktan ako sa isasagot mo...so ang ibig sabihin hindi nga....ouch di ka ba nagtaka kung bakit nagmadali na ko ng ibaba ang telepono???di pa ko inaantok nun......i've just heard enough.....hahahaha.....di ko na kaya......naiiyak na ko nun eh.....di ka ba nagtataka kung bakit di ko binubura mga text mo sa akin?????....simple lang ang dahilan ko......dun ko lng kasi naconconvince ang sarili ko na kahit pano mahal mo ko.....marami ng beses naisip na iwan ka..pero di ko kaya......
Sunday, July 10, 2005
pinag iisipan ko 2 confusing eh hehehehe
alin nga ba ang mas malalim? love o inlove?
marami sa atin ang naco2nfuse tungkol dito.
Ikaw ba ay may girlfriend o boyfriend ngaun?
Mahal moba siya pero prang may isang tao na parang mahalaga din sayo. o may mahal ka n akala mo
eh mahal mo nga siya pero meron ka pa rin isang tao na minamahal ng totoo.
Kapag love mo ang isang tao masaya ka..
Feeling mo ok na ang lahat..pero kung inlove ka, masakit yun!
Kasi angmga taong in love ay ang mga taongng sasakripisyo at ngpaparaya.
Teka bakit ka ngaba ngpaparaya? kc di ka niya mahal o dhil hindi ka siguradong ok lng sa knya?
Kung yan angdahiln mo, inlove ka nga sa knya.
Kasi iniisip mo kung ano meron kayo sa ngaun at kontento ka na.
Pero isipin mo pano kung mawala ang tao un at tlgng hindi na kau mgusap at magkita, kaya moba?
pano kung maguluhan siya sayo at maisipanglayuan ka?
pano kung sa sobrang pagiging iba mo sa kanya
di ka nya kausapin at tuldukan nakung ano na ang meron kau?
kya mo ba? kung hindi ang sagot mo inlove ka nga..
Pano naman pag mahal mo lang, pag mahal mo lang, alam mo na parati kang may choice, ayaw mo siyang mawala dhil alm mong wala ka ipapalit.
Ung masaya ka sa kanya pero sa gabi hindi namansiya ang iniisip mo.
Mahal mo siya pero aminado ka sa sarili mo na balang araw hindi siya angpakakasalan mo.
Mahal mo siya pero ang puso mo hindi lng pra sa kanya..
Mahal mo at masasaktan ka pagnawala siya pero alm mo nakaya mo un
.Ngaun Love lng ba o Inlove ka na?
Isang araw magigising ka n lang na inlove ka nanga pero huli na.
Tandaan: Masyadong mapaglaro ang pusowagtayo magpaloko!!
LOVE IS NOT ABOUT FEELINGS IT IS A MATTER OF CHOICE
marami sa atin ang naco2nfuse tungkol dito.
Ikaw ba ay may girlfriend o boyfriend ngaun?
Mahal moba siya pero prang may isang tao na parang mahalaga din sayo. o may mahal ka n akala mo
eh mahal mo nga siya pero meron ka pa rin isang tao na minamahal ng totoo.
Kapag love mo ang isang tao masaya ka..
Feeling mo ok na ang lahat..pero kung inlove ka, masakit yun!
Kasi angmga taong in love ay ang mga taongng sasakripisyo at ngpaparaya.
Teka bakit ka ngaba ngpaparaya? kc di ka niya mahal o dhil hindi ka siguradong ok lng sa knya?
Kung yan angdahiln mo, inlove ka nga sa knya.
Kasi iniisip mo kung ano meron kayo sa ngaun at kontento ka na.
Pero isipin mo pano kung mawala ang tao un at tlgng hindi na kau mgusap at magkita, kaya moba?
pano kung maguluhan siya sayo at maisipanglayuan ka?
pano kung sa sobrang pagiging iba mo sa kanya
di ka nya kausapin at tuldukan nakung ano na ang meron kau?
kya mo ba? kung hindi ang sagot mo inlove ka nga..
Pano naman pag mahal mo lang, pag mahal mo lang, alam mo na parati kang may choice, ayaw mo siyang mawala dhil alm mong wala ka ipapalit.
Ung masaya ka sa kanya pero sa gabi hindi namansiya ang iniisip mo.
Mahal mo siya pero aminado ka sa sarili mo na balang araw hindi siya angpakakasalan mo.
Mahal mo siya pero ang puso mo hindi lng pra sa kanya..
Mahal mo at masasaktan ka pagnawala siya pero alm mo nakaya mo un
.Ngaun Love lng ba o Inlove ka na?
Isang araw magigising ka n lang na inlove ka nanga pero huli na.
Tandaan: Masyadong mapaglaro ang pusowagtayo magpaloko!!
LOVE IS NOT ABOUT FEELINGS IT IS A MATTER OF CHOICE
Sunday, July 03, 2005
take me out of the dark
Just what is it in me?sometimes I just don't know
what keeps me in your love
why you never let me go
And though you're in me now
I fall and hurt you still
My Lord please show me how
to know just how you feel
You have forgiven me
too many times it seems
I feel I'm not what you might calla worthy Christian after all
And though I love you so temptations
finds it's way to meT
each me to trust in You with all of my heart
to lean not on my own understanding
coz' I just forget
You won't give me what we can't bear
Take me out of the dark My Lord
I don't want to be there,ooh,hah
You never left my side
You gave Your hand to meto hold You,oh Jesus
I'm no longer in the cold
And yet I leave You there
when I feel satisfied
I'd like to thank You everyday
not only when I feel that way
I've never known a man
who'd give His life for sinners like me
And yet because He loves us so
He promised us eternity
And we can have His promise and be His if have faith and just believe..Teach us to trust in You
with all our heart
to lean not on our own understanding
cause we just forget
You won't give us what we can't bear
Take us out of the dark our Lord We don't want to be thereYeah, My Lord
Teach me to trust in You with all of my heart
to lean not on my own understanding'cause I just forget You might give me what I can't bear
Take me out of the dark My Lord
I we don't want to be aloneYou take me out of the dark,My lord
i don't want to be there,ooh,ooh...hah...
hurt>>>
pano mo naman sasabihin sa isang tao na nasaktan ka niya???oo masaya na ko at kontento na rin...hanggang sa may nalaman sana nga di ko na lang nalaman...di sana gnito....galit ako oo naman may karapatan namn akong magalit eh dis tym...siya naman ang papahirapan ko na humingi ng sorry sa akin pero pinili ko pa rin na wag na lang magalit??? para saan pa??mababago pa ba yung mga yung nangyari?? hindi na d ba??bkit pa ko magpapadala sa galit...yan na nga ang hirap eh masyado ata akong mabait...pero wala naman akong pinagsisihan...nasaktan lang talaga ko...hindi ko kasi na kung sino pa yung inaakala ko na di magagawa yun nagawa niya sa akin...tanga ko...sana naniwala na lang ako sa payo ng iba...di sana ako nasaktan ng ganito..sana di ko na lng nalaman yun...nasakatan lang talaga ako sobra....di lang niya alam na hindi ko na natago ang iyak ko ng sinabi niya yun....buti na lang sa txt lang...kung sa phone baka kung ano pang masabi ko or magawa ko...alam ko naman na wala akog karapatan manumbat on the first place pinilit ko lang naman ang sarili ko.....pero foul talaga yun eh kahit sabhin ko pa sa sarili ko na okay lang..alam ko sa loob ko di talaga okay yun...pero lam mo papsalamat ako kasi napaka honest mo..hindi lahat ng tao kayang umamin ng ganun...pero di ko na mabubura sa ispi ko yun na minsan balak akong lokohin ng taong mhal ko....
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
gUiLtY
I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe
[CHORUS - (LEE)]
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) -
[ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime -
[ALL]Then I'm guilty
[VS2 - (SIMON)]
I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy -
[LEE])I never wanted to live a lie
[CHORUS - (LEE)]
If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) -
[ALL]
]If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime -
[ALL]
Then I'm guilty
[BRIDGE - (ANTONY)]
Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say
[CHORUS - (LEE)]
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) -
[ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty[OUTRO]
What am I supposed to do
[Duncan]
Then I'm guilty
[Lee]
All I wanna do is speak my mind
[All]
Guilty
[Lee]
Then I'm guilty
[Lee]I'm prepared to testify
[Duncan]
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside
[Lee]
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
[All]
I'm Guilty
[Duncan]
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe
[CHORUS - (LEE)]
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) -
[ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime -
[ALL]Then I'm guilty
[VS2 - (SIMON)]
I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy -
[LEE])I never wanted to live a lie
[CHORUS - (LEE)]
If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) -
[ALL]
]If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime -
[ALL]
Then I'm guilty
[BRIDGE - (ANTONY)]
Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say
[CHORUS - (LEE)]
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) -
[ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty[OUTRO]
What am I supposed to do
[Duncan]
Then I'm guilty
[Lee]
All I wanna do is speak my mind
[All]
Guilty
[Lee]
Then I'm guilty
[Lee]I'm prepared to testify
[Duncan]
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside
[Lee]
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
[All]
I'm Guilty
[Duncan]
hArDesTdAy----coRRs
One more day, one last look
Before I leave it all behind
And play the role that's meant for us
That said we'd say goodbye
One more night (one more night) by your side (by your side)
Where our dreams collide
And all we have is everything
And there's no pain there's no hurt
There's no wrong it's all right
If I promise to believe will you believe
That there's nowhere that we'd rather be
Nowhere describes where we are
I've no choice, I love you
Leave, love you wave goodbye
And all I ever wanted was to stay (all I ever wanted was to stay)
And nothing in this world's gonna change, change
Never wanna wake up from this night
Never (never) wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
Leaving you, the hardest day of my life
The hardest day of my life
I still breathe (I still breathe), I still eat (I still eat)
And the sun it shines the same as it did yesterday
But there's no warmth, no light
I feel empty inside
But I never will regret a single day
I know it isn't going to go away
What I'm feeling (I'm feeling) for you
I will always love you
Leave, love you wave goodbye (love you wave goodbye)
And all, and all I ever wanted was to stay (all I ever wanted was to stay)
Nothing (nothing) in this world's gonna change...
Never wanna wake up from this night
Never (never) wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
I never knew I'd ever feel this way
I feel for you...Never wanna wake up (I feel for you, I feel for you)
from this night
Never (never, never) wanna leave this moment
Wainting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget (never gonna forget) every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
Leaving you, the hardest day of my life...Never wanna wake up from this night...
Before I leave it all behind
And play the role that's meant for us
That said we'd say goodbye
One more night (one more night) by your side (by your side)
Where our dreams collide
And all we have is everything
And there's no pain there's no hurt
There's no wrong it's all right
If I promise to believe will you believe
That there's nowhere that we'd rather be
Nowhere describes where we are
I've no choice, I love you
Leave, love you wave goodbye
And all I ever wanted was to stay (all I ever wanted was to stay)
And nothing in this world's gonna change, change
Never wanna wake up from this night
Never (never) wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
Leaving you, the hardest day of my life
The hardest day of my life
I still breathe (I still breathe), I still eat (I still eat)
And the sun it shines the same as it did yesterday
But there's no warmth, no light
I feel empty inside
But I never will regret a single day
I know it isn't going to go away
What I'm feeling (I'm feeling) for you
I will always love you
Leave, love you wave goodbye (love you wave goodbye)
And all, and all I ever wanted was to stay (all I ever wanted was to stay)
Nothing (nothing) in this world's gonna change...
Never wanna wake up from this night
Never (never) wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
I never knew I'd ever feel this way
I feel for you...Never wanna wake up (I feel for you, I feel for you)
from this night
Never (never, never) wanna leave this moment
Wainting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget (never gonna forget) every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
Leaving you, the hardest day of my life...Never wanna wake up from this night...
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
w3LcOmE tO mY LyF
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on, turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like meTo be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
And feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
with the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
And feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but
I'm not not gonna be okay
Everybody always got you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like...To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
And feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
To be hurtTo feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
And feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on, turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like meTo be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
And feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
with the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
And feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but
I'm not not gonna be okay
Everybody always got you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like...To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
And feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
To be hurtTo feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
And feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
sa kAnya
Namulat ako at ngayo'y nag-iisa
Pagkatapos ng ulan
Bagama't nakalipas na ang mga sandali
Ay nagmumuni kung ako'y nagwagi
Pinipilit mang sabihin na ito'y wala sa akin
Ngunit bakit hanggang ngayon, nagdurugo pa rin
Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya
At sa hatinggabi ay nag-iisa na lang
Ay minamasdan ang larawan mo
At ngayo'y bumalik nang siya'y kapiling pa
Alaala ng buong magdamag
Kung sakali man isipin na ito'y wala sa akin
Sana'y dinggin ang tinig kong nag-iisa pa rin
Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin
Sa kanya, sa kanya, sa kanya, hah-ooh
Sa kanya.
Pagkatapos ng ulan
Bagama't nakalipas na ang mga sandali
Ay nagmumuni kung ako'y nagwagi
Pinipilit mang sabihin na ito'y wala sa akin
Ngunit bakit hanggang ngayon, nagdurugo pa rin
Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya
At sa hatinggabi ay nag-iisa na lang
Ay minamasdan ang larawan mo
At ngayo'y bumalik nang siya'y kapiling pa
Alaala ng buong magdamag
Kung sakali man isipin na ito'y wala sa akin
Sana'y dinggin ang tinig kong nag-iisa pa rin
Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin
Sa kanya, sa kanya, sa kanya, hah-ooh
Sa kanya.
Sunday, May 22, 2005
juz fooling around
wala lang it's been a long tym.............................................
mahal na mahal kita talaga ...................................
mahal na mahal kita talaga ...................................
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
heart of mine =(
one day, you may
find true love that will last forever and ever
till then you'll spend
a lifetime wishing one together
you never thought she'd say goodbye
and you will never understand the reasons why
chorus
:heart of mine, how can you keep from dying
stop reminiscin', who is she kissing
heart of mine, oh what's the use in tryin'no one can mend you now
love plays cruel games
you can't believe she's found another lover
does she miss me
sometimes you just can't help but wonder
no you can't stop the hands of time
and you will always be the one she left behind
repeat chorus
adlib
and you will always be the one she left behind
repeat chorus
lalala...lalalala...no one can mend you now
find true love that will last forever and ever
till then you'll spend
a lifetime wishing one together
you never thought she'd say goodbye
and you will never understand the reasons why
chorus
:heart of mine, how can you keep from dying
stop reminiscin', who is she kissing
heart of mine, oh what's the use in tryin'no one can mend you now
love plays cruel games
you can't believe she's found another lover
does she miss me
sometimes you just can't help but wonder
no you can't stop the hands of time
and you will always be the one she left behind
repeat chorus
adlib
and you will always be the one she left behind
repeat chorus
lalala...lalalala...no one can mend you now
faLLeN
ooh... yeah..our litle conversation
are turning into little sweet sensation
and they're only getting sweeter everytimeour friendly get togethers
are turning into visions of forever
if i just believe this foolish heart of mine
i can't pretend that i'm just a friend'cause i'm thinking maybe we were meant to be
chorus:
i think i'm fallin', fallin' in love with you
and i don't, i don't know what to do
i'm afraid you'd turn away
but i'll say it anyway
coda:
i think i'm fallin... for you
i'm fallin' for you...whenever we're together
wishing that goodbyes would turn to never'cause with you is where i'll always wanna be
whenever i'm beside you
all i really wanna do is hold youno one else but you has meant this much to me
i cant pretend that i'm just a friend'cause i'm thinking maybe we were meant to be
repeat chorus2xcoda 2:
i think i'm fallin'... for you
i'm fallin' for you
i'm fallin', i'm fallin' for you
i'm fallin', i'm fallin for you
and i don't know what to do, yeah
fallin', i'm fallin' for you
are turning into little sweet sensation
and they're only getting sweeter everytimeour friendly get togethers
are turning into visions of forever
if i just believe this foolish heart of mine
i can't pretend that i'm just a friend'cause i'm thinking maybe we were meant to be
chorus:
i think i'm fallin', fallin' in love with you
and i don't, i don't know what to do
i'm afraid you'd turn away
but i'll say it anyway
coda:
i think i'm fallin... for you
i'm fallin' for you...whenever we're together
wishing that goodbyes would turn to never'cause with you is where i'll always wanna be
whenever i'm beside you
all i really wanna do is hold youno one else but you has meant this much to me
i cant pretend that i'm just a friend'cause i'm thinking maybe we were meant to be
repeat chorus2xcoda 2:
i think i'm fallin'... for you
i'm fallin' for you
i'm fallin', i'm fallin' for you
i'm fallin', i'm fallin for you
and i don't know what to do, yeah
fallin', i'm fallin' for you
i CoULd NoT asK fOr MorE
Lying here with you, Listening to the rain,
Smiling just to see, The smile upon your face,
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.
Looking in your eyes,Seeing all I need,
Everything you are, Is everything to me,
These are the moments, I know heaven must exist,
These are the moments, I know all I need is this,
I have all I've waited for,And I could not ask for more.
Chorus:
I could not ask for more than this time together,I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
Yeah right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I've got all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more. . .
Chorus:I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,Every dream I have's come true,
And right here in this moment, Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .
I could not ask for more than the love you give me,Cause it's all I've waited for . . .
And I could not ask for more,I could not ask for more.
Smiling just to see, The smile upon your face,
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.
Looking in your eyes,Seeing all I need,
Everything you are, Is everything to me,
These are the moments, I know heaven must exist,
These are the moments, I know all I need is this,
I have all I've waited for,And I could not ask for more.
Chorus:
I could not ask for more than this time together,I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
Yeah right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I've got all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more. . .
Chorus:I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,Every dream I have's come true,
And right here in this moment, Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .
I could not ask for more than the love you give me,Cause it's all I've waited for . . .
And I could not ask for more,I could not ask for more.
can we still be friends???
We can't play this game anymore but
Can we still be friends?
Things just can't go on like before but
Can we still be friends?
We had something to learn
Now it's time for the wheel to turn
Grains of sand, one by one
Before you know it, all gone
Let's admit we made a mistake but
Can we still be friends?
Heartbreak's never easy to take but
Can we still be friends?
It's a strange, sad affair
Sometimes seems like we just don't care
Don't waste time feeling hurt
We've been through hell together
Can we still be friends?
Can we still get together sometimes?
Can we still be friends?
You know that life will still go on
We awoke from our dream
Things are not always what they seem
Memories linger on
It's like a sweet, sad, old song
Can we still be friends?
Can we still get together sometimes?
Can we still be friends?
You know that life will still go on
Can we still be friends?
Can we still get together sometimes?
Can we still be friends?
You know that life will still go on
Can we still be friends?
Things just can't go on like before but
Can we still be friends?
We had something to learn
Now it's time for the wheel to turn
Grains of sand, one by one
Before you know it, all gone
Let's admit we made a mistake but
Can we still be friends?
Heartbreak's never easy to take but
Can we still be friends?
It's a strange, sad affair
Sometimes seems like we just don't care
Don't waste time feeling hurt
We've been through hell together
Can we still be friends?
Can we still get together sometimes?
Can we still be friends?
You know that life will still go on
We awoke from our dream
Things are not always what they seem
Memories linger on
It's like a sweet, sad, old song
Can we still be friends?
Can we still get together sometimes?
Can we still be friends?
You know that life will still go on
Can we still be friends?
Can we still get together sometimes?
Can we still be friends?
You know that life will still go on
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
i dont wanna know
P. Diddy - talking]
Hold up, let me answer my phone
Some bitch callin me about some bullshit probably
I'ma call you right back
I'm doin' this mixtape right now
Now back to what I was sayin
[Verse 1 - Mario Winans]
Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself[
Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know
[Verse 2 - Mario Winans]
Oh baby
I think about it when I hold you
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't need to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself
[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know
[Break - Mario Winans]
Did he touch you better then me (touch you better then me)
Did he watch you fall asleep (watch you fall asleep)
Did you show him all those things that you used to do to me (do to me baby)
If your better off that way (better off that way)
Baby what I like to say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don't come back to me(Stay away from me baby)
[Verse 3 - P. Diddy]
I don't wanna know where your whereabouts or how you movin
I know when you in the house or when you cruisin
It's been proven, my love you abusinI can't understand, how a man got you choosin (yeah)
Undecided, I came and provided ma
My undivided, you came and denied it (why)
Don't even try it, I know when you lyin (I know when you lyin)
Don't even do that, I know why you cryin (stop cryin)
I'm not applyin no pressure, just wanna let you know
That I don't wanna let you go (I don't wanna let you go)
And I don't wanna let you leave
Can't say I didn't let you breathe
Gave you extra cheese (c'mon), put you in the SUV
You wanted ice so I made you freeze
Made you hot like the West Indies (that's right)
Now it's time you invest in me
Cause if not then it's best you leave
Holla, peace
[Chorus - Mario Winans]I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know
Hold up, let me answer my phone
Some bitch callin me about some bullshit probably
I'ma call you right back
I'm doin' this mixtape right now
Now back to what I was sayin
[Verse 1 - Mario Winans]
Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself[
Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know
[Verse 2 - Mario Winans]
Oh baby
I think about it when I hold you
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't need to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself
[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know
[Break - Mario Winans]
Did he touch you better then me (touch you better then me)
Did he watch you fall asleep (watch you fall asleep)
Did you show him all those things that you used to do to me (do to me baby)
If your better off that way (better off that way)
Baby what I like to say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don't come back to me(Stay away from me baby)
[Verse 3 - P. Diddy]
I don't wanna know where your whereabouts or how you movin
I know when you in the house or when you cruisin
It's been proven, my love you abusinI can't understand, how a man got you choosin (yeah)
Undecided, I came and provided ma
My undivided, you came and denied it (why)
Don't even try it, I know when you lyin (I know when you lyin)
Don't even do that, I know why you cryin (stop cryin)
I'm not applyin no pressure, just wanna let you know
That I don't wanna let you go (I don't wanna let you go)
And I don't wanna let you leave
Can't say I didn't let you breathe
Gave you extra cheese (c'mon), put you in the SUV
You wanted ice so I made you freeze
Made you hot like the West Indies (that's right)
Now it's time you invest in me
Cause if not then it's best you leave
Holla, peace
[Chorus - Mario Winans]I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know
cold summer nights
I keep on blaming my self
I should have eaten my pride
how can i convince you
its just a matter of time
many times i've hurt you
with my foolish ways oh girl
now i know i have to pay the price
is there a way for u to turn around,turn around and come back baby
ohh baby cant u see
CHORUS:
its been cold summer nights since we drifted apart
cold summer nights since you walked out that door
cold summer nights here on my own
coz i miss you baby, i need you here
RAP:cold summer nights girl, i really miss you
you rocked my world
i wanna touch you and kiss youits my fault
i never called you at home
i'm on the phone, wishing you could call
i'm all alone
is there a way for you to turn around and come back to me i hope you understand
that i'm your man and together we can
kiss and make up 'coz you know i cant stand
Repeat Chorus
I should have eaten my pride
how can i convince you
its just a matter of time
many times i've hurt you
with my foolish ways oh girl
now i know i have to pay the price
is there a way for u to turn around,turn around and come back baby
ohh baby cant u see
CHORUS:
its been cold summer nights since we drifted apart
cold summer nights since you walked out that door
cold summer nights here on my own
coz i miss you baby, i need you here
RAP:cold summer nights girl, i really miss you
you rocked my world
i wanna touch you and kiss youits my fault
i never called you at home
i'm on the phone, wishing you could call
i'm all alone
is there a way for you to turn around and come back to me i hope you understand
that i'm your man and together we can
kiss and make up 'coz you know i cant stand
Repeat Chorus
sa besprend ko
napaka ipokrita ko naman siguro kung sasabihin kong di na kita mahal.... mahal pa rin kita kaya lang may mga bagay na di na pede at siguro isa na tayo sa mga yun... naiinis ako sau kasi sinsabi mo rin na mahal mo pa ako pero ayaw mo naman akong paglaban...... kasi may iba na ko...oo nga marahil may iba na ako pero alam ko sa puso ko kaw lang ang tumay na kaligayahan ko... kaw lang ang makakapagkompleto sa buhay ko... sa tuwing magkasama kami lagi kong iniiisip sana kaw na lang ang kasama ko marahil mas masaya ako... pero di na pede... ayoko ng ganito nasasaktan ako....dahil alam kong nasasaktan kita....hanggang kailan ba natin dapat pigilan ang nararamdaman natin para sa isat isa?????
Saturday, April 02, 2005
read it maganda...peyups.com
Ang Huling Araw
Kung tatanungin ako ng Diyos kung gaano kita minahal, ang isasagot ko, 10 beses na higit pa sa nararapat. Minahal kita hindi dahil pakiramdam ko lang tama, pero dahil ginusto ko yung naramdaman ko at walang kung ano pa man.
Minsan mo na akong tinanong kung pinagsisisihan kong nakilala kita. Sinabi ko hindi. Ngayon na nga siguro ang araw na kinatatakutan ko. Dahil kapag tinanong mo ulit sa akin yan, alam kong oo na ang isasagot ko. Sa lahat kasi ng nangyari sa buhay ko, ikaw lang ang gusto kong burahin. Wala ng iba.
Alam kong tama na tong ginagawa ko ngayon. Tama ng mawala ka sa buhay ko. Dahil alam kong wala ng pag-asa yang sinasabi mong pagkakaibigan natin. Tanga lang ako na minsan kong inisip na yun ang pinanghahawakan ko pero hindi pala. Dahil pinili mo pa rin akong saktan kahit alam mong dapat naging isa kang kaibigan.
Nung mga panahong ikaw at ikaw lang ang kailangan ko, hindi man lang kita mahanap. At kahit alam kong alam mo yon, pinili mong tiisin ako. Ngayon hindi na ko umaasang nandyan ka pa, dahil simula palang nang-iwan ka na.
Itinapon ko na rin ang lahat ng kasinungalingang sinabi mo na ang masakit ay pinaniwalaan ko. Nang sinabi mong importante ako sa yo at hindi mo kayang wala ako, kagaguhan lang yon. Siguro napilitan ka lang sabihin yon, o di kaya, sinadya mo para paasahin ako.Ngayon, lahat ng binitawan mong salita, wala ng halaga. Simple lang ang rason: dahil wala ka ring kwenta.
Wala na rin akong pakialam kung nagustuhan mo man ako o hindi. Ang importante, nagbigay ako ng buong buo at ni minsan ay hindi humingi ng kahit anong kapalit. Kahit papano, naturuan mo akong maging matatag. Natuto na rin akong tumigil sa paghahabol at pag-iyak sa taong manhid na tulad mo.
Siguro nga nasira mo na ang lahat sa akin. Ang paninindigan ko, tapang at paniniwala ko, pati ang katauhan ko, pero kaya kong ibangon ang sarili ko at mabuhay ng wala ka. Ako pa rin to. Oras at araw lang ang nagbago.
Ngayon na ang huling beses na sasabihin ko ito sa yo. Ngayon na ang huling pagkakataon na iisipin kita. Lahat ng bagay na dumaan, burado na. Pati buhay ko, bago na. Ngayon na ang huling oras na mamahalin kita. Ngayon na ang tamang oras para sa lahat, para malaman mo kung gaano mo ako sinaktan. Tapos na yon lahat ngayon. Ito na ang huling araw ng paghihirap...Tama na, tapos na. Pero sa huling araw na ito, isa lang ang sigurado ako.
Hindi ito ang huling araw na sinabi ko lahat to
Kung tatanungin ako ng Diyos kung gaano kita minahal, ang isasagot ko, 10 beses na higit pa sa nararapat. Minahal kita hindi dahil pakiramdam ko lang tama, pero dahil ginusto ko yung naramdaman ko at walang kung ano pa man.
Minsan mo na akong tinanong kung pinagsisisihan kong nakilala kita. Sinabi ko hindi. Ngayon na nga siguro ang araw na kinatatakutan ko. Dahil kapag tinanong mo ulit sa akin yan, alam kong oo na ang isasagot ko. Sa lahat kasi ng nangyari sa buhay ko, ikaw lang ang gusto kong burahin. Wala ng iba.
Alam kong tama na tong ginagawa ko ngayon. Tama ng mawala ka sa buhay ko. Dahil alam kong wala ng pag-asa yang sinasabi mong pagkakaibigan natin. Tanga lang ako na minsan kong inisip na yun ang pinanghahawakan ko pero hindi pala. Dahil pinili mo pa rin akong saktan kahit alam mong dapat naging isa kang kaibigan.
Nung mga panahong ikaw at ikaw lang ang kailangan ko, hindi man lang kita mahanap. At kahit alam kong alam mo yon, pinili mong tiisin ako. Ngayon hindi na ko umaasang nandyan ka pa, dahil simula palang nang-iwan ka na.
Itinapon ko na rin ang lahat ng kasinungalingang sinabi mo na ang masakit ay pinaniwalaan ko. Nang sinabi mong importante ako sa yo at hindi mo kayang wala ako, kagaguhan lang yon. Siguro napilitan ka lang sabihin yon, o di kaya, sinadya mo para paasahin ako.Ngayon, lahat ng binitawan mong salita, wala ng halaga. Simple lang ang rason: dahil wala ka ring kwenta.
Wala na rin akong pakialam kung nagustuhan mo man ako o hindi. Ang importante, nagbigay ako ng buong buo at ni minsan ay hindi humingi ng kahit anong kapalit. Kahit papano, naturuan mo akong maging matatag. Natuto na rin akong tumigil sa paghahabol at pag-iyak sa taong manhid na tulad mo.
Siguro nga nasira mo na ang lahat sa akin. Ang paninindigan ko, tapang at paniniwala ko, pati ang katauhan ko, pero kaya kong ibangon ang sarili ko at mabuhay ng wala ka. Ako pa rin to. Oras at araw lang ang nagbago.
Ngayon na ang huling beses na sasabihin ko ito sa yo. Ngayon na ang huling pagkakataon na iisipin kita. Lahat ng bagay na dumaan, burado na. Pati buhay ko, bago na. Ngayon na ang huling oras na mamahalin kita. Ngayon na ang tamang oras para sa lahat, para malaman mo kung gaano mo ako sinaktan. Tapos na yon lahat ngayon. Ito na ang huling araw ng paghihirap...Tama na, tapos na. Pero sa huling araw na ito, isa lang ang sigurado ako.
Hindi ito ang huling araw na sinabi ko lahat to
Thursday, March 31, 2005
TrUe
TRUE- Ryan Cabrera
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
hAPPy EnDiNg
"My Happy Ending"
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up up so high On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knewAnd I thought we could be
[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus]
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
[Chorus x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up up so high On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knewAnd I thought we could be
[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus]
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
[Chorus x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
sa nangiwan sa akin....
2 years..... im really hurt,,,, siguro di lang hurt devastated pa.....believe me.......hanggang nagyon i'm trying to convince myself na wala ka na... na may iba ng nagmamay ari sau...nasanay ako na ako lang ang mahal mo eh hehehehe... nakakatawa naman yun...sana may mga right words para maconvince kita na ako dapat ang mahalin mo.... na ako dapat ang piliin mo.... hindi xa.....pero wala...wala akong nahanap....lahat na ata ginawa ko para maconvince ka pero wala talaga siya na talaga....nasaktan ako dahil umasa ako sa pangako na binitiwan mo.... nangako kang babalik....pero di pala all this time naghihintay ako sa wala.....may mga dumating na higit pa sayo pero ikaw pa rin ang pinili ko..dahil kung meron mang isang daang rason para iwanan kita humahanap pa rin ako ng kahit isang dahilan para paglaban ka......pero mali.....sana di na lang kita pinaglaban...nakakatawa naman talaga dapat di ako nasasakatan ng ganito... alam natin na sa ating dalawa ako ang nagbibigay at laging naghihintay...at ikaw... ,,, laging ikaw ang nang iiwan,,,,mahina ka.... oo tama ka i deserve more... we both know na IM ONE HELL OF A GIRLFRIEND.......YOU REALLY DON'T DESERVE ME I'LL JUST HOPE YOU'LL BE HAPPY........you know what i really WANT to hate you.... but i can't find myself to hate you
(So yesterday)
So yesterday)
(So yesterday)
You can change your life(If you wanna)
You can change your clothes(If you wanna)
If you change your mind
Well that's the way it goes
But I'm gonna keep your jeansAnd your old black hat('Cuz I wanna)
They look good on meYou're never gonna get them back
At least not today
Not today
Not today
, 'cuzIf it's over let it go
andCome tomorrow it will seemSo yesterday
So yesterday
I'm just a bird
That's already flown away
Laugh it off
Let it go and
When you wake up it will seemSo yesterday
So yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay
You can say you're bored(If you wanna)
You can act real tough(If you wanna)
You could say you're torn
But I've heard enough
Thank youYou've made my mind up for me
When you started to ignore me
Do you see a single tearIt isn't gonna happen here
At least not todayNot todayNot today
, 'cuzIf it's over let it go andCome tomorrow it will seem
So yesterdaySo yesterday
I'm just a birdThat's already flown away
Laugh it offLet it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterdaySo yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay
If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, What is left to do
How can you hang up,If the line is dead
If you walk out, I'm a step ahead
If you're movin' on, I'm already gone
If the light is off, Then it isn't on
At least not todayNot todayNot today,
'cuzIf it's over let it go a
ndCome tomorrow it will seem
So yesterdaySo yesterday
I'm just a birdThat's already flown away
Laugh it offLet it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterdayHaven't you heard
you're so (yesterday)
If it's over let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterdaySo yesterdayI'm just a bird
That's already flown awayLaugh it off
Let it go and
When you wake up it will seemSo yesterday
So yesterday
Haven't you heard that im gone be okay
So yesterday)
(So yesterday)
You can change your life(If you wanna)
You can change your clothes(If you wanna)
If you change your mind
Well that's the way it goes
But I'm gonna keep your jeansAnd your old black hat('Cuz I wanna)
They look good on meYou're never gonna get them back
At least not today
Not today
Not today
, 'cuzIf it's over let it go
andCome tomorrow it will seemSo yesterday
So yesterday
I'm just a bird
That's already flown away
Laugh it off
Let it go and
When you wake up it will seemSo yesterday
So yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay
You can say you're bored(If you wanna)
You can act real tough(If you wanna)
You could say you're torn
But I've heard enough
Thank youYou've made my mind up for me
When you started to ignore me
Do you see a single tearIt isn't gonna happen here
At least not todayNot todayNot today
, 'cuzIf it's over let it go andCome tomorrow it will seem
So yesterdaySo yesterday
I'm just a birdThat's already flown away
Laugh it offLet it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterdaySo yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay
If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, What is left to do
How can you hang up,If the line is dead
If you walk out, I'm a step ahead
If you're movin' on, I'm already gone
If the light is off, Then it isn't on
At least not todayNot todayNot today,
'cuzIf it's over let it go a
ndCome tomorrow it will seem
So yesterdaySo yesterday
I'm just a birdThat's already flown away
Laugh it offLet it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterdayHaven't you heard
you're so (yesterday)
If it's over let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterdaySo yesterdayI'm just a bird
That's already flown awayLaugh it off
Let it go and
When you wake up it will seemSo yesterday
So yesterday
Haven't you heard that im gone be okay
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