thoughts you never knew

you always ask me why i am always so mad or moody...
and i tell you to think and think and think because i am so tired of explaining the the things i mentioned before...

the truth is i lied,,,i haven't forgiven you....

.....for not telling me your real name when we met and it took seven months for you to reveal that the name you're using is just your pet name....

.....for forgetting our monthsary.... i hate you to death when you told me that our monthsary is the 6th of each month and when i corrected you, you did not even apologized that day...

.....for not spending more hours with me when we met....

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i hate you so much because you love your pride so much....more than you can love me....
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you already losing me but you don't know it because you are so busy pretending that we are happy or i am happy.... and you always think that saying "i love you so much and i want to spend my life with you" will make me forget the things that you do...

and please don't apologize when you don't know the reason why you're apologizing because it is more frustrating....and it makes me hate you more...

i am just so tired of exerting more effort and love for the both of us...to make our relationship work....i need you to do your part because i am very tired...and i am so afraid that the love that i still have for you will be lost....

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"You always knew just how to make me cry
And never did I ask you questions why
It seems you get your kicks from hurting me" -give in to me by Michael Jackson...