a honest entry

tap tap tap....

my ate ning went to saudi awhile ago...we never had the chance to accompany her in the airport....the reason was simple....we had no budget and even if we had a budget i will not be able to join them...i have a class......

i felt guilty because i was not able to see her yesterday...gumala kasi ako...that's why when i got home i called her up.....she just told me "wag ka munang mag asawa"
and i simply told her i won't....

then i gave the phone to my aunt..and they were crying haahaha......

i'm gonna miss her...a lot....(i'll never ever repeat that hahaha)
i'll miss her in the house....i'll miss fighting with her (hahaha)
and mostly i'm gonna miss her children (naks naman)...

when we we're still young (much younger than now)..we used to fight like cats and dogs....and that's normal..she's the middle child (and i believe that she was suffering what we call "middle child syndrome" hahaha)and i'm the youngest (with a 9 years gap,,,imagine that)...that's why my mom decided that i must stay with my aunt( and i'm still here)....but we outlived that stage....but we still fight sometimes....

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i hate mrs carreon!!! i do i do i do!!!!!and include sister!!! i hate them both of them wait!!!!! i forgot to include cecille and ate lyn!!!!!!FUCK THEM ALL OF THEM!!!LOSERS STAYS TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!AND THEY'RE BUNCH OF LOSERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M FULL OF HATE!!!!!!!!!!!! I HOPE THE GIANT SQUID WILL EAT THEM!!!! BLAHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!!!!(but i'm not holding any grudge hahahaha)


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MISERABLE LIFE


i watched MMK..it was about a teacher who went mad....he suffered post traumatic something...

i suddenly remembered my father...(drama to pare!!!) he suffered depression when my mother died (2 years ago) and i felt guilty because instead of understanding him.. i was mad because of what he's doing in himself...but it's all too late now he's gone too (oo people i'm an orphan....adopt me).....
all the rumors about his death.....we'll i'm sorry ate (to the eldest) but i believed them....now i know that you can't be trusted...you're selfish...you don't know how to love....you're heart is as hard as a stone....i just hoped that you will not end up all alone...and i hope that not one of your kids will pay what you have done to our parents...(esp.to our mom)

iyak iyak ka pa dyan...well what can i say you're a good actress......

i hate my father's relative because they always favored her....(ULK)...kasi daw she was the lost sheep..the prodigal daughter (fuck that)..at least in the story of the prodigal son, the son returned to his father and ask for forgiveness but you?? you never asked for forgiveness and to make the matters worst you never changed.....

i feel so sorry for you...