my new year's day (spent)

last january 1, i practically spent my day with mike and his folks ( mind you i still get nervous everytime i go there)

i will elaborate the people

1. his lola (who is used in seeing me there)
2. his parents (who is also used in seeing me there)
3.his tita (the look alike of his mom who is also used to me hehehe she's nice)
4.his kuya dong(the best looking one) and his wife meanne(whatever don't like her anyway) and their son JC (who's super duper cute :))
5.his ate karen and her husband ( i don't know the name) with their daughter danielle..(who's really makulit and knda iyakin)
6.his kuya jay with his gf jasmine

7.his sister kamille
8. his other tito's and tita's and bunch of kids i don't know if those where his cousins or nephews ( i really dont care)

i arrived there before lunch...wala na sana ako balak mag merienda kaya lang they said na sabay kami kumain ng gf ni JAy well that's okay kasi because we almost arrived at the same time....(nauna ko ng 5 mins hehehe)

the night before...i told mike that i really don't like spaghetti...but that's a lie...the truth?? well i just say that i still have trauma about their spaghetti (haha bad bad me and tell you mike doesn't have any clue about this).

wala medyo badtrip lang talaga ako nung lunch time nah....i ate with kuya jay, jasmine, their tatay ( who finished his food agad), his kuya dong and his wife(basta there something about her that really makes me pissed off)...wala kainis si mike nun kasi di man lang ako sinabayan and i admire his kuya jay for being the damn sensitive one kasi i was touched when he told mike na "sana sinabayan mo siya kahit konti lang" and the worst scenario that put me on the verge of tears was when Mike asked me to move my chair..tumayo ako and then he told me ba naman "ayaw mo na?" siguro kung di lang sumingit ang kuya niya i might have forgotten my manners and walked away..."pinapatayo mo siya tapos bigla mong tatanungin kung ayaw niya nah" "pinapalipat ko lang naman siya" mike answered..."pinapalipat mo siya di mo naman nilipat yung upuan niya"
that's it kainis noh...

ganun din nung meryanda..he insisted on giving me a buko salad kahit na alam niya na ayaw ko ng salad...

he even asked me to go outside kahit nah i told him i don't like there...
ewan ko basta that day...happy pero i was really pissed off with him...

i asked myself if i still love him.....and yeah sure maybe i still do...but i don't know if it's enough to still linger in our relationship...well just to clear this ish i haven't found someone new... i just think i want to be alone for awhile...


i just want to be numb......