Saturday, December 18, 2010

time

i am currently looking at my photobucket which i never get to open for a year and my friendster account that i have also not opened for a few months just like this blog.

i am staring at the posts and pictures and while looking at the memories... i just realize that i have a lot of friends that i lost, losing and probably future friends that i will lose.

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friendster

college days, retreat in bagiuo, graduation, teeny bopper for SPONGECOLA, BUM days, very short hair, first balikbayan padala, first studio pic :), webcorr days, foundation training, first salary (union bank) ,face paints, sm, ginger bread house, first NCO CLARK xmas party, breakroom, gerry's grill, MOA, star city, pantry, My 24th BDAY, team Lorie, Flexpay, gelai's first bday, romeo raphael baptism,


photobucket


old pics, old templates, ex boyfriends, spongecola, 5566, hana kimi, emo days, anime' fruits baskets., slam dunk,

Saturday, May 15, 2010

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habang pauwi na kami galing ng robinson's tarlac, the song by side a played so loud on the jeepney's radio..

suddenly all the memories comeback and i remembered telling him "dapat ako ang may kanta niyan sa'yo di ikaw" and he told me that it doesn't matter basta yan ang kanta niya sa akin sa yung your love ng alamid...

wala naalala lang kita....

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Friday, April 30, 2010

updates

Jepsz and i had a fight because of krishun. He told me everything and the truth is i appreciated his honesty but i will not deny that i am angry, frustrated and mostly hurt.

He sincerely said sorry and i accepted it. He said that this will not happen again and I am holding to that promise. At least for now, I will not feel guilty for being happy.

I just hope that Krishun will know her boundary and as much as I would like to hate her I can't, it would be just a waste of energy. We were never acquainted so I've got nothing to lose. I just hope that she will just be happy with her boyfriend, Micu or whatever his name is.

I just hope that she'll be that intelligent to know the meaning of respect, because like me she's also a girl.

I am still thankful for what had happened at least now Jepsz and I are more than okay now. We're sweeter now and he's more open :)



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"Far Away"

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Friday, April 23, 2010

fears

jepsz and i celebrated our 3rd monthsary last 20th and i was freaking silent..

i was tired super, i am just so tired of crying these past few days until my health followed :(

he asked me if i have something to tell him, i said no... but the truth is that i have so many things that is running on my mind i just made my work as an excuse.

the truth is i am hurting,,, details next time

Friday, March 26, 2010

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i am so much hurting...it's just that i try so hard to conceal it especialy from you. i tried to be silent because i love you so much and i really don't want to lose yoU. nakakatwa is okay lang ako ng okay pero ang totoo naiiyak na ako.. nakahiya na lang talaga if iiyak. yung totoo lang it really hurts me that i can't make you happy as andrea can....






I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got somethin' to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/bVI ]

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we
can't rewind (And there's
nothing that I can do
To stop me losin' you)
I can't make you change your mind
(If your heart's not in it)

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it


Sunday, March 21, 2010

weekly update

i moved out of the house.... not because i wanted to,,, need lang talaga... my shift starts at 330 am and i will kawawa naman if i still insist in going home to tarlac everyday :)


i miss home so much.... :) especially my bed.. i love my bed :)


i like the 330 am shift but the worst thing about it is that we always play trip to jerusalem... agawan ng bay talaga and we just joke na we just need to bring our own avaya and our own pc :)

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i bought a crown headband.... i will wear it coz it would be my bday next week :)


Thursday, March 04, 2010

sweet :)

ei no problems sa sked natin. next week 10-7 na kmi. wed to thurs off. we can still see each other sunday and monday during your off 10 pa naman shift ko diba. di ako galit syo nagkataon lang na ngkasabay sabay lahat. dont worry kasama ka sa priorities ko dahil girlfriend kita at MAHAL KITA. dont feel insecure and jealous kahit sino kasama ko ikaw pa rin iniisip ko thats an assurance na di ako mwawala sayo. and hopefully sana nappsaya pa rin kita kc parang dko nraramdaman na nppsaua kita minsan and i feel guilty din.
3:35amMaria Luisa

napapasaya mo kaya ako :):)
3:35amHipolito

"Siguro ulit ulit na lang but I want you to know that I really love you and I am so much afraid to lose you.
"... ngayon lang ako minahal ng ganito . dati ako lang ngmamahal. sarap pla ng feeling na dalawa kayong ngmamhalan. I love you luisa! wag mong isipin mga bagay na di pa nangyayari. i am here giving you second chnce as you rewiested but kahit ilang ulit ka pa magkamli i will alwaus give you a chnace coz i myself is not pperfect.
i was not able to write for a few months but here's the update on my life..

jhepsz and i are together,,we are fighting right now but i know and i hope that this is something that we can go through...

michael and i talked and we decided that he needs to give me the closure that i need..he unselfishly gave it to me... and i thank him for that i am happy with my life right now,, and i finally decided that i want to get into a higher position... hahaha just waiting for my endorsement,, please i really need this :)

Monday, January 18, 2010

the truth is i am happy for the past weeks without rhomnhick,, and this one is for sure i am so much in-love with HOEJ, i really don't know why...

iniisip ko he's gay so there is no chance for us but the happiness i feel whenever i am with him is so so real.. i can really laugh my heart out and i can really be myself around him,,,he really knows that i am really clumsy, and klutz whatever the difference of that two words,, and he really make me feel kilig, the type of kilig that i haven't felt for the longest time hahaha,, i just feel like a 14 year old girl again who is having a crush for the first time hahahaha :)


i really don't want this feeling to end,,it really makes me feel good even though that it is just an illusion....


hayaan mo na lang ako mahalin ka ....