caught in the act

i feel bad as in really really bad jc went here in the house to have lunch with me....it was supposed to be a happy moment but it turned so ugly....

Jc found out about me and mike...actually wala naman talaga akong dapat ipaliwanag sa kanya eh...coz he's not my bf kaya lang i really felt bad when he told me na babalikan na dapat niya ako next year.... nag init ulo ko...and i just said that's what you get for making me your last resort!!...di ako nanghihnayang basta alam ko nasabi lang niya yun dahil nasaktan ko ego niya...ngayon natatakot akong makarama huhuhu... i really feel bad.....

i told mike about this.. syempre ang bato naman niya kung di xa makakaramdam ng galit di ba?? nagalit siya pero we're working things out...and i hope we'll do okay in coming days....

too much for playing safe.....
so much for wanting everything.....

.......forgive me please...

i made up my mind there's no turning back he's been good to me and he deserve better than that.....

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terrorism's target is not to kill innocent people but have the people lose faith in what they believe.........angels and demons

this is my blog and these are my thoughts....

"the subic rape case"

what can i say about this blah blah shit...?! ay yeah....

first.....
i dont actually believe that this so-called NICOLE was raped...

why??

her siblings went home but she decided to stay because she was too busy flirting with the american guy hahaha

then the american guy flirted back..then they had sex....hahaha
wait why do you need to use a condom if you're raping somebody hmmmmm.....

why did she say it was rape maybe because daniel smith realized that it's only a one night stand and for her....something meaningful hahaha...

and to top it all why did she have an american boyfriend??
for me...if i was raped by an american guy why would i choose an american for a boyfriend???will i not think of them as pigs?? why would i want to go to USA?? to be raped again and ask for a citizenship??? nyahahahaha..

oh please........


( no offense meant to whoever reads this that supports girl)

"vengeance is sweet" ...

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SAD SAD SAD

i don't have the close up mini cd yet......


will you die for someone you love???
my answer is no...why would i die for someone i truly love???
when they are the reason why i am alive....

even if my loved one die....i will still live for them..



to be contd.... hehehehe

paroxysm.......

these past few days....mike and i are having problems in terms of communicating...and i admit it's my fault coz i enjoy the habit of nit-picking people and he's my favorite....

there are times when i just want to end things..say goodbye, let go and never look back...i tried to do it but due to whatever reason i just can't do it...

i'm living a lonely life a very very lonely life nd i don't want him to a part of my loneliness...i want him to be happy and not to be tied with someone like me....i'm miserable...

sure i can smile, i can laugh and even crack some jokes but it will never ease the pain that i feel... there's no room for emotions in my heart.....

he told me once that i can tell him evrything but sadly i was not born that way..i am a very discreet person...i'm hurting but you can never see a singl trace of hurt in my face...you can never see a tear in my eyes....

spiderman once said "punch me and i'll bleed"

bleed.....

i want to bleed physically so that people will see that i'm hurting and suffer in much pain....

but i'm bleeding internally...no one can see it....nobody knows about it...nobody knows that i'm slowly dying....

please see the real me...feel me....punch me.....i beg you.....


boredom's talking.........

nocturne

Nocturne

Laid my head on the pillow
Watched the night go by
Watched the checkered pillowcases come alive
Silence croons me slowly
And I wonder how you are
Are you sleeping soundly?
You don't quite feel as far

Saw your name written on the ceiling
Not sure if I'm still dreaming of you
I've seen you in my sleep

From across the room the clock leers
As I try to sleep again
I would rather shorten the night
Than lengthen the sleep

We lose our voices

I would rather spend it dreaming of you

Saw your name written on the ceiling
Not sure if I'm still dreaming of you
I've seen you in my sleep

Saw your name written on the ceiling
Not sure if I'm still dreaming of you
I've seen you in my sleep

Saw your name written on the ceiling
Not sure if I'm still dreaming of you
I've seen you in my sleep

Saw your name written on the ceiling
Not sure if I'm still dreaming of you
I've seen you in my sleep

Saw your name written on the ceiling
Not sure if I'm still dreaming of you
I've seen you in my sleep

I've seen you in my sleep
I've seen you in my sleep
I've seen you in my sleep

entry after a long long time...

at least for now i will be able to write an entry...yesterday i went to an internet cafe.....that expected me to have memorized the letters in the keyboard....obviously the people around me were playing thse so-called "ON LINE GAMES"...oh believe me i can see their excitment and happiness while playing those things....i don't understand what's and where's the fun in it...te hehehe


as i have said i was asked to substitute for a week coz the father of mrs. ber passed away....

i was obliged to go to a seminar yesterday actually i have no intentions of going there but my co teachers asked me to be there coz i will be able to write it in my resume'.....Mr. Pulmano (whatever) of abs-cbn was there he's one of the guest speaker.... he has a nice voice and sure he's a good speaker...but after his talk we go to our respective classroom or designated places.....

the speaker "Sharon Tarantan" yawn.......... i hope you have an idea...
her talk was extremely boring and i think i learned absolutely nothing hahaha bad bad me...but she should thank God for her good looks...nyay

we decided to have a recess and decided to eat the sandwiches that VIBAL PUBLISHING has to offer it was and egg with ham sandwich.....and VIRGIN COLA...my friends and i laughed...we teased each other that whoever drinks VIRGIN COLA that's
not a virgin will die hehehehehe instantly...
but
nobody died hehehe...

lunch time.....ulk the food not that good...i never thought VIBAL PUBLISHING is STINGY hehehehe...

we went gicels house but she was not around...only Ero was there....i remembered ero on my pre school years..she was madamot back then ..i think the reason she talked to me now was beacuse gcel was my friend....but she gets ilang daw with me because ate allen was my friend...and allen was ilang naman with me daw coz kereen was friend.....

kareen got married last sat. at first i didn't believe her.....
riza got married too and anabel...she's my bestfriend again...muahhhhh

seems that people now are rushing in getting married hehehehe.........


i bought home a KFC bucket meal hehehehe i love kfc...

last friday...mike fetched me and i asked him to accompany me in F salon...i have my hair cut...hehehe if you can call it a haircut because my hair is still long mike was upset because he said that i only wasted my money coz there was no difference...

i like it that way...

i missed mike...it's been too long....

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i never thought that kfc chickn will taste so delicious when im with you....
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Manny won......good for him.......weeeee..............

life is not fair while some are getting richer and richer some are getting poorer and poorer...

sumting sumting

it's been awhile.....hehehehe

i was asked to teach for a week......hehehehe

i miss smy blog.......

whoever said that life is not always a bed of roses you're wrong......we have some problems because we move to the side where the roses have torns...hehehehe

somebody stop me

i remembered telling my friends and marie "pag nakapag pa pic ako kasama si yael hihinto ko na kabaliwan ko".......

but no i was wrong because when i had the chance with yael.....i became more addicted....because im willing to go far just to see them play...

mike told me it's just a waste of time because they will never recognize me......i don't care

but really i want to stop...please help me to stop.....

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hay arlene, faye and I we're so thrilled to get hold of our license hahaha.....

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last nov. 1 a saw marie pala in the cemetery......

missed me???

i'll be back sooner than you think......